I've spent over 20 hours these past 10 days reading and answering a couple of posts. That's a lot of hours considering the little time I have to spare. How productive was that? Is it worth it or am I wasting my time?
I started wondering why I was came here to start with. What brought me back day after day. Could it be pleasure? Did I enjoy the blame game that some members drag everyone in? Did I appreciate the endless and repetitive arguments in which anger and sarcasm took over? I don't think so. I never intended to defend my side of the story.
But I did appreciate the intelligence and input of a dozen of active members and my interaction with them.
Like many people in here, I was searching for three things:
- to hear an echo, a supportive echo from like-minded individuals from the other side of the divide; people whose voice is marginal in their community (just like mine is) because they are true peace-seekers. I'm not interested in a temporary truce or a way to combat the enemy through peaceful ways so as to help my group get what it failed to grab through war and violence. Did I hear such an echo, somewhat, but it was drowned by the hubbub of cyber-soldiers.
- Try to discuss different issues with people I don't agree with so as to understand what they are saying and why they are seing it. And I have to admit that I failed to achieve that with both staunch pro-zionists and committed anti-zionists (though I faired less dismally with the latter).
- share experiences with people who are active in the field of peace building. I have to confess that I didn't do much for that. But I will start a small discussion on this topic before my "leave of absence".
Well, I'm off to write the last discussion before my furlough.
Good luck and see you in a couple of weeks.
or as we say in ּBeirut, yalla bye