Whenever I hear an ambulance my heart goes down. Especially when I hear (or at least I think I hear – it may be echo sometimes) more that one ambulance. Immediately comes to my mind that there might have been a terror attack. Probably most of the times it’s an accident, or some other tragedy. Actually I think I have never heard an ambulance in its way to a terror attack scene, & still. Every time I hear a boom I think it’s a bomb. Or maybe a missile from the near by Kalkilia (I live in Kfar Saba) or maybe from Lebanon, or Syria or Iran. I have to mention that as far as I can recall there was only one terror attack in Kfar Saba. My mother in law was on scene (she wasn’t heart) but I haven’t even heard the boom. There are many origins for booms. I hear booms & sirens on a daily basis. Even couple of times a day actually, but they never have something to do with terror or war.
One of the noises I especially hate is airplanes. Helicopters, or jet top guns or whatever. Sometimes I also see them. I like to travel a lot in Israel, & I encounter them everywhere. I always anxious when I see them – what happened, or what is about to happen I think to myself. Is it some warfare that is going on? Is it a training for something that is about to happen?
Don’t think I worry just to myself – I worry for all the people that are involved in the conflict. If we attack someone is gonna be harmed, including, in many cases, innocent people. I don’t want that. & of course – somebody will fight back. Every action of this sort I afraid that is going to have a pay back action, & so on & so on. More hate spreaded, more people in harm & agony, more public resource enslave to unpeaceful lifes.
It makes me sad.
It also makes me a nervous person. I don’t know what of these to chose to enfold…
I wrote a little song called ambulance blues. I hope to complete it & upload it to the internet. I’ll give here a link.
I am sorry to hear people get banned here. I don’t know the details, but I have to say that it doesn’t sounds good, & it doesn’t mater how you look on it.
Today, & last Saturday I went to olive harvest in Palestinian villages. It was quite pastoral. I know not everywhere & always it is like that. Anyhow – I’m not sure how important for the Palestinians my help was, but I have to say that every time I get to meet Palestinians they are nice. It almost sounds stupid when I write it down. The thing is that there are many people that don’t want to live in peace & harmony, on both sides. I reject that. & it doesn’t mater if the reason is fear or poverty or whatever. But I think that somehow we have to negotiate our way toward peace. I only don’t know how… anyhow – I hope that people that plans hate attacks will stop doing that, & I hope all of us will find the way to put the war behind us. I hope that through positive encounters, like the harvest, or the meeting in Beit Jala that I participated at last month, we can solve a part of this huge shadow on our lifes. Unfortunately, I think that there are still much too many people, in both sides, that doesn’t want peace. Can we change it?
Oh, & last one more thing – isn’t it sad what is going on in Akko?
p.s. (yes, I’m not so good in last things
1 – I know many people share my feelings. It is both authentic post then as well as representative.
2 – the word doesn’t accept lifes. Is there some other plural for life?